Trying not to bother but seems like I do.
I should tell myself I did it to others as well, so what goes around comes around.
We are living in a superficial circle, anyway; you get noticed and given attention only if you are hot or cute.
If neither, please step to the back of the line no matter how pleasant your attitude is.
Most people don't give a crap about it.
The same goes here.
Sunday, January 3, 2016
Friday, July 10, 2015
22
Learnt to let go again, and find excuses. There always are; I am never the all-known, so don't act like one. Remember the first date and smile =)
Saturday, June 27, 2015
21
I'm jealous, slightly but I don't blame him. He's done nothing wrong at all. Just me feeling jealous for no reason. It's me who suggested it after all
Fuck me and jealousy and insecurity.
Monday, April 20, 2015
20
I care, I bloody care but I know it just doesn't matter.
Human will always go for something/someone better if given chance. After all, why not? We are an opportunistic creature, we won't let a chance slip away. I did the same as well, so I can't really hold grudge when others did the same to me.
Still, it hurts a little bit to realize that u matter less to others.
Ah well, we change. Nothing stays the same.
Be happy that the paths intersect even for awhile.
Time to move on.
Human will always go for something/someone better if given chance. After all, why not? We are an opportunistic creature, we won't let a chance slip away. I did the same as well, so I can't really hold grudge when others did the same to me.
Still, it hurts a little bit to realize that u matter less to others.
Ah well, we change. Nothing stays the same.
Be happy that the paths intersect even for awhile.
Time to move on.
Monday, June 16, 2014
19
How gullible can someone be? The answer, apparently, is really.
For the first time in a very long time, I feel fucking lonely. I have always been alone but never lonely. Tonight is a rare exception. I miss a lot of people but I wonder how many of them remember me still.
I'm tired. I really am.
I don't know to turn to who. Somehow, it's like there's no one that I can really open myself up.
I miss the old me. The me that always be by myself only, that cares for no company and survives nonetheless. I want the old me that can go out and walk around the mall alone for hours and never feel lonely.
I still miss u, u know. I put up a strong front. I act like it doesn't matter much to me but if not because of these meds, I wonder if I would be able to sleep. I just want u to know that the past three months have been really wonderful for me. I'm happy and I wish u are as well with me.
U may have not been the first guy I fall in love with but u are definitely the first one I fall into really deep. To put it in another way, u are the first one that made me lost sleep and teary.
Right now, I just want your embrace.
For the first time in a very long time, I feel fucking lonely. I have always been alone but never lonely. Tonight is a rare exception. I miss a lot of people but I wonder how many of them remember me still.
I'm tired. I really am.
I don't know to turn to who. Somehow, it's like there's no one that I can really open myself up.
I miss the old me. The me that always be by myself only, that cares for no company and survives nonetheless. I want the old me that can go out and walk around the mall alone for hours and never feel lonely.
I still miss u, u know. I put up a strong front. I act like it doesn't matter much to me but if not because of these meds, I wonder if I would be able to sleep. I just want u to know that the past three months have been really wonderful for me. I'm happy and I wish u are as well with me.
U may have not been the first guy I fall in love with but u are definitely the first one I fall into really deep. To put it in another way, u are the first one that made me lost sleep and teary.
Right now, I just want your embrace.
Monday, May 19, 2014
18
'This too shall pass'
U had it temporarily tattooed on ur arm during our recent trip. When I saw it, I can't help but think......."Am I one of 'this' as well?"
Do u see me as another one of many things that will pass one day? One that is not here forever? Because if it does, then it explains a lot of things.
I know u are in a very bad situation right now. So I wont burden u yet but piggy, when this is over and u are bit free again, I wanna talk to u bout few things. Things that I need to let out, that we need to discuss as a couple.
Till then, I will always miss u
Love,
Bii
U had it temporarily tattooed on ur arm during our recent trip. When I saw it, I can't help but think......."Am I one of 'this' as well?"
Do u see me as another one of many things that will pass one day? One that is not here forever? Because if it does, then it explains a lot of things.
I know u are in a very bad situation right now. So I wont burden u yet but piggy, when this is over and u are bit free again, I wanna talk to u bout few things. Things that I need to let out, that we need to discuss as a couple.
Till then, I will always miss u
Love,
Bii
Monday, April 21, 2014
17
He's definitely not a guy I would chase if it was me two years ago.
He didn't hug me much, he didn't kiss me much. Sex? errrr I leave that for me alone to know but yeah, intimate moment isn't something abundant when I'm with him.
I can say that he is a guy who doesn't really need physical attention as much I do. From what I gathered, the amount of guys he met for fun after his previous breakup can be counted using just one hand while me need both hands AND feet to accommodate last year hookup. Such big difference, no?
Maybe that's why he can go by without seeing me for extended period while me get all cranky after mere one week. I admit the slut in me is still there but the only difference is that I'm suppressing it deep inside.
Maybe that's why whenever he goes physical with me no matter how small it be, I get really, really excited. The two most memorable memories so far were when he held my hand while walking back towards the car after the birthday dinner and the kiss he gave me last week in the car before dropping me at my bike. Those two encounters were really brief but it left me feeling high and ecstasy.
My only hope is that he won't find my constant peck on his cheek or pat on his head annoying.
He didn't hug me much, he didn't kiss me much. Sex? errrr I leave that for me alone to know but yeah, intimate moment isn't something abundant when I'm with him.
I can say that he is a guy who doesn't really need physical attention as much I do. From what I gathered, the amount of guys he met for fun after his previous breakup can be counted using just one hand while me need both hands AND feet to accommodate last year hookup. Such big difference, no?
Maybe that's why he can go by without seeing me for extended period while me get all cranky after mere one week. I admit the slut in me is still there but the only difference is that I'm suppressing it deep inside.
Maybe that's why whenever he goes physical with me no matter how small it be, I get really, really excited. The two most memorable memories so far were when he held my hand while walking back towards the car after the birthday dinner and the kiss he gave me last week in the car before dropping me at my bike. Those two encounters were really brief but it left me feeling high and ecstasy.
My only hope is that he won't find my constant peck on his cheek or pat on his head annoying.
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