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He's definitely not a guy I would chase if it was me two years ago.

He didn't hug me much, he didn't kiss me much. Sex? errrr I leave that for me alone to know but yeah, intimate moment isn't something abundant when I'm with him.

I can say that he is a guy who doesn't really need physical attention as much I do. From what I gathered, the amount of guys he met for fun after his previous breakup can be counted using just one hand while me need both hands AND feet to accommodate last year hookup. Such big difference, no?

Maybe that's why he can go by without seeing me for extended period while me get all cranky after mere one week. I admit the slut in me is still there but the only difference is that I'm suppressing it deep inside.

Maybe that's why whenever he goes physical with me no matter how small it be, I get really, really excited. The two most memorable memories so far were when he held my hand while walking back towards the car after the birthday dinner and the kiss he gave me last week in the car before dropping me at my bike. Those two encounters were really brief but it left me feeling high and ecstasy.

My only hope is that he won't find my constant peck on his cheek or pat on his head annoying.

16

I miss you, piggy.

Seeing u for few minutes last Monday didn't cure this 'craving' at all but rather it became even worse =.=

It was roughly two weeks since we last met but it felt like months. Maybe because knowing we were so close but unable to meet due to our schedule just exacerbate it.

I miss hugging u and feeling ur warmth around me. This cold, chilly night drawn me towards loneliness and emptiness.

Piggy, I want u now but I know I'm been unreasonable

So till then, remember me always