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I miss u.

I miss him.

I miss..............J

Don't know why I keep writing it down here. Not like it helps me to get over him but maybe just as a memory.

To remind me someday that I had once loved someone so much.

To make me remember that I too am capable of loving someone with all my heart.

There's nothing wrong with loving someone so much even though it is just one-sided. Not everything is fair in this world.

U could treat someone so well and he will still forget u but at the same time, u still just can't take your mind off him.

Sigh~

Time to talk to turtle again, tonight

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We agreed to be friend again, without benefit. Just like how we used to be before we started be touchy touchy.

But we both know it is almost impossible. At that time, u treated me well because u had feeling for me, u had a crush on me. U didn't mind drive all the way here just for dinner with me or pick me up so that I can accompany u while u completed ur assignment.
From my side, even though I didn't have feeling yet towards u at that time, I still treated u as well as u did to me because I finally found someone that I felt like could become a good friend. I miss having one after I lost so many.

But now, u lost that feeling. So tell me, what do u see me as now? My guess is I become just another normal friend; neither close nor good. U started see me as a crush. When u got to fall back, the only available option was just normal friend.
Me...I see u as good friend from beginning til now. So whether the feeling goes away or not, it won't change anything.

After all, when someone who tried to squeeze between his busy schedule to update u on his well-being become someone who find u after he has settled his daily chores, doesn't that tell u everything already?

Just another friend...beggar cant be picky

9

I never expect there will come a day that I miss someone so much that I'm crying.

I miss u, J

8

Now I understand what it feels to love someone so deep that it hurts

7

I feel lonely.

A terrible feeling.

Ever since I knew u, I never felt this way till now.

Don't know how to put it down in word but I want u back.

Back the way we used to

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well well welll.........

After two incidents; one made me felt embarrassed, another made me felt insulted, I seriously need to rethink again.

When u tried to hold someone's hand and he didn't reciprocate, won't u feel like burying yourself 6" under? The embarrassment, as if all these while only u that were all over him.

Used to hug him every single time before we departed, even on broad daylight. One time, just one time he made joke about it and I felt so insulted. I knew it was just a joke but I can't help myself to feel this way.

No more.

It's no one fault. But I will be selfish.

Until I can calm myself down, we won't be close friend-with-benefit, just close friend.

Still.........I miss your touch